It has taken a long time, but I have finally found myself. It is not as if I was searching for who I am all these years; it was more like, where did I come from to become who I am today. Sure, we all have our individual flaws, mishaps, misfortunes, and lessons. I am no different than any other human being who learns through experience, and through what he or she is taught. However, I have also contemplated what it is I firmly believe and what it is I still want to either learn, or do. Really, all of us are searching for meaning and contribution, but I am satisfied with my presence to the point where any curses have turned into blessings and any lessons have turned into love.
It was not an easy journey. I have lived through a childhood of lies and instability. I have had setbacks and retardation. I basically have gone from point Zero to where I am NOW. Where I am now is great, but where I have been is far more incredible. Even though I have gone through crazy, unpredictable times, I have also gone through sane, silent achievements. I have gone through feelings of gratitude, loneliness, euphoria, and hardship. I have seen both light and dark. I have even known streets as my best friend.
Where I am now is great. I am older and more the wiser. I have settled down to the point where I can call my home a real home. In fact, I have everything I could possibly think of having, even though I still carry holes in my heart. Sure, those holes consist of empty memories which bear the pain of loss and tribulations. And, though I continue to carry these holes in my heart, gratitude fills them up as a family welcoming a stranger into its home.
I, too, have found my own personal meaning, and though I still search for more meaning, I am content with where I have been and where I want to go. Because in this day and age, a lot of us may be able to go nearly anywhere, but every one of us has the potential to reach the farthest star if we just strive hard enough to reach it!
Cheers to you and yours, and may we all be blessed by the power of GOD. All-men and all women!
